A restart...???

After a long time I gonna write..
Mind is free....nothing is coming..
Wanna write a lot..but....?????

My days are becoming bad..donno what i'm doing with my life....
Nobody is responsible for my life, other than me and my decisions..
God is taking time to give me answer....Is it only for me or everyone has to wait this long to get their answers...I really don't know..I really don't understand...:((

waiting for the days to get over...

I'm getting damn bored in this room..

Before i used to like to be alone, now i'm alone but missing some freedom....something is holding me back...I'm not able to go out of the house freely...sometimes neighbours are also becoming my enemies....I didn't fight with them, but i jz hate them sometimes...

Don't know what is happening with me, i was never like this before..

My mind is telling me that i should change...

Yes...You should change...You should change ..

Or your fate should change, otherwise your fate will change u...

where to go.....

Don't know where to go....

what to do.....

Hope God might have kept something for me...

But now just feel blank....

My days are again going to be horrible....

Feel like going to an unknown place , there only me and my world..

No one should be there to disturb my dreams and desires...

There I should fly like a bird....a "free bird"

Those who loves me & whom I love can enter..

They should be like babies , they should only know to smile & love...

I can't wait for my day to come...

I just feel bored of waiting for my day & my ..........;)

Life is beautiful .....:(((((

When I am with u, there is nothing in the world as special as u,
I am a butterfly and you are my garden,
When I am in garden, there is no place in the world as safe as that.

When I am with you, I know only to be happy,
I don’t know to be sad , I don’t know to be scared,
There is no place as comfortable as that.

I learned to love ,
I learned to be happy,
I learned to to fly in your garden,
I learned to live my life with you.
I learned everything because of you and you only.

But now I know , you are not there with me,
I am not with you as your shadow…
You loved me and I too loved you…
Then why you left me and went?

I know, it’s only because of you I am here in this world now..
Whatever I have now is because of you, because of your inspirations..
You taught me to live my life happily.
But without you, I will not be happy.

There are memories,
To lighten my world, to live rest of my life..
There , still you are my garden and I am a butterfly..
I will be thankful to you, for teaching me to live,
Teaching me to face hurdles..
And my desire is….be happy wherever you are…

My life was so beautiful…only because of you, only because of your thoughts…
My life is so beautiful…only because of you, only because of your thoughts…
My life will be beautiful…only because of you, only because of your thoughts…

waiting for tht day.........:((

At last I feel free. I feel free and independent. Since last few days, I realised all the past chains that was binding me, hurting me, holding me back has been broken at last. At last, I am totally out of love. I am my own person. My heart does not beat for anyone other than me. When my phone rings I don’t miss a heart beat with the anticipation of a long desired phone call. I don’t have to rush to get back home to be with someone, think about someone before I do anything. At last the time came, the long waited time, after a long agonising period that I feel happy of being myself, I feel happy of being alone, I feel happy for not needing someone to make me happy, I feel happy for not being responsible to make someone else happy.

It is soo liberating. It’s so comforting. I feel content, I feel happy…after a long agonising time.

I'm waiting.......when i'll have such a day in my life????????

When i'll write all these lines......?????

abt Me........!!!!

"Tears r the words my heart uses 2 explain whenevr my fake smiles can't cover up my pain".

I'm an ordinary village girl who likes 2 live as a modern girl..bt couldn't ..:((

It's bcoz of my character , i'm very sensitive,emotional etc etc...sometimes i couldn't control my tears!!

I'm tryg to b bold,bt sometimes lif pulling me bak by giving me failures!!!

so tel me hw can i b bold??

but i'm thankful 2 LIFE (God) for giving me such a good

-> life,

-> parents,

->siblings,

-> friends!!

haaa..............friends!!!!

the most valuable thing in my life......i will (try to) do anythg 4 u guys!

i'm such a girl who s tryg to be truthful n honest 2 evryone,n expectng the same frm thm too....again i know it's not gonna happen.....

I have a hell lot of dreams,some sounds like an ordinary girl's dreams,some sounds different (i think) , wanna begin an old age home,an orphanage etc etc.....bt sometimes i like to earn money n like to live my life to the maXX....WITOUT ANY RESTRICTIONS......

I like to be alone sometimes......n love being wit my lovely friends too.......n love to fulfill their small desires n make thm happy..... ("Whoevr stays wit me,they should be happy"),no matter wt their character is......

Personally i like to dress up,like to use cute accessories ,even i don't wear it ,i like to collect it..

n i think i've good selection sense too......n i love my voice [n i have few fans too....;)]..

So time being i think it's enough........will b bak with somthg interesting ;))......

one of my photography....